I know that I won't be here long, so I'm not going to say that I have a renewed willingness to update often and document everything, but I guess it's nice to have a memoir every now and then.
The last couple of months have had their highs and lows. Bar the usual woes of university, there has been a lot of things which I've never experienced before. My grandfather passed away on June 10th. He was in Vietnam on holiday (grandma and grandpa always go back to Vietnam during the winter months in australia to escape the cold) when he fell ill. I don't know how to translate all the vietnamese info into english, but he had a virus in his lungs which gradually took away his ability to breathe. He was put on life support, and even though I can point out so many wrong and, in essence, immoral things about the Vietnamese public hospital system, I can't get over the fact that I wasn't there to say goodbye. It stays as this pit in my stomach when I think of grandad and the pain and feelings of helplessness before he passed. Although most of my family was back in Vietnam with grandad, I feel that I've failed to play my part in the last chapter of his life. Even in a hopeless situation, one should be surrounded by all the love in the world and all the things and people which mean the most to him. My grandad was such a huge part of my life. I don't want to go on about all the memories because the internet is such a public forum, but my grandad has always been there for me and his presence was such a constant and undeniable thing. It hasn't fully hit me that he has passed yet, but I hope he's enjoying his time in a better place.
I know it sounds so corny, but I'll always look up to all his hard work, patience with us kids, his ability to muster up the coolest jokes and his simple mindset. He and grandma have moulded me into the person I am today. I will miss him so much and I will never forget him.
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