First proper blog

I should be doing my biology notes right about now.

I'm not all that enthusiastic about school at the moment. I know, it's about the worst time to be all 'whatever' about it. Half yearlies are in two weeks.

I searched up 'Hurlstone' on youtube the other day and found myself watching some graduation slide shows. I have to admit, I shed a couple of tears. Haha, that's kind of sad considering I don't really know any of the people featured in most of them. I reckon it was just the combination of 'Time of your life' and year seven photos which brought about my sense of nostalgia.

I reckon I'm going to bawl my eyes out at our graduation ceremony. It's all so close, but so far away. This time next year I probably won't even talk to the majority of people I see everyday at school, and that really is a big thing for me. If you know me, you know I don't like change. I hate it when I have to climb out of ruts I've taken so long to dig.

I don't think I'm up for this kind of stuff. I don't know what I want to be when I grow up yet. I have no passion for anything. I admit I have interest in things, but there's nothing I really love. I despise people who get all consumed in something and enjoy doing it. I just think, "Lucky them, they get to pursue something they think is worthwhile." I'm not a complete cynic. I guess I'm just jealous. When I try to force myself to enjoy something, I just think that I'm feigning enjoyment, feigning passion.

No, I'm not being all emo about it. Haha, I guess it seems that I emanate the typical Generation Y paradoxical characteristics - apathy and emotism (I made 'emotism' up). And, considering I'm typing all this up onto a blog, I reckon I deserve a ribbon for "epitome of Gen Y".

Hmmm.

Well, those biology notes aren't going to do themselves.

I'll blog more later.